Holy Moly Mommy

Maybe its a little late, a month later, that I am now really starting to realize that I am a mom...mommy...mother..mama...you get the idea.It just seems so strange, I'm someones Mom. The picture of a mom is so different in my head then what I see in the mirror. Maybe its just that I don't feel that old or maybe its because I still cant get my chocolate chip cookies right, or that as I hate to admit it I still watch Jersey Shore (so so sad I know!) Ive really only, up till a couple days ago thought about the whole mom thing on the surface because really thinking about it is a bit...overwhelming. This title now and forever defines who I am. Ive been quite a few things, a wild child, a love struck teenager, a solider, a wife. Most of them fleeting and not long lasting (except that last one) but now a Mom. The gravity of it gives me butterflies in a good but still nauseating way. Don't get me wrong I am more than excited and you would think that I would be more prepared for this knowledge not only did I have nine months growing her, but we had been trying for over a year even to the point where fertilty drugs were needed, so this was a well planned little baby, but still talk about pressure! The desire to do everything right can drive anyone insane! So I know that I am not unique in this feeling. Everyone has a mother right? So I can't be the first to feel like this. But all this got me thinking about all the different types of mother/ child relationships that are around me. My own, Jeremy's, my friends each has a special sort of bond with their mom, and without a doubt a relationship with your mom has a great deal to do with who you become. So everything I do can have an impact on who Olive grows up to be. Good Golly its all a bit to crazy to think about!...

...But I suppose thinking/stressing about this fact will in the end drive me crazy. And if there is anything I do not want to be is a crazy mother! So alas, I shall take it day by day and try as hard as I can to beat Jeremy out of the fun parent spot, which right now he is winning, but in my defense I spend most of my time nursing and trying to get her to sleep while he gets all the play time. So as soon as she gets a bit bigger the real race to "fun parent" will start (side note: I called fun parent like 5 months ago so its really rightfully mine) I can however see how some people have liters of children because this whole experience is somewhat addicting (although I would prefer to improve on my last birth process) Everyone said over and over "get ready because your life is about to change" Well I had hoped/prayed that it would and it has for the better and I was pretty sure it couldn't get any better then it was...

...Luckily I managed to find the best man to do this with. Jeremy by far is the best Daddy I have ever been around (well on the same par as my daddy that is) He is so good with Olive. He is just so natural with her. Singing, reading, playing, and teaching her any time her eyes are open. I pretty sure he was made to be a daddy. And not only is he great with her hes great to me. Its just a side of him that I would have never known and it makes me love him even more. Geez I sound mushy which is very uncharacteristic of me but oh well just this once is OK...

...at the baby shower we got advice cards from everyone. We got quite a bit about patience, money, sleep, even a joke about Popeye and Brutus, but one of our friends that has 3 little ones wrote "Make time for you guys to be alone together whenever possable, Its so important to have a strong marriage in order to be great parents." Out of everything I took that to heart the most. Jeremy and me took a long road to get to the point in our marriage where we were the strongest and I am so thankful we waited till then to start a family because I Cherish him and us more now than ever. So that's my rambling about parenting so far and I am sure there is so much more to come. As much as I don't want her to get bigger I at the same exact time cannot wait till she does, and that to me makes all the sense in the world...

I had to sneak this goodie in here. She looks just like a little boxer!! I knew she was gonna be a tough girl! No pink for this one, which by the way believe it or not I have managed to keep her away from most pink stuff which is hard because EVERYTHING for little girls is in pink!!

Love you all, post again soon

-J-

Someone wake this sleeping baby!

A thunder storm and a snow storm on the same day!?! Crazier things have happened I suppose. Olive however has lately been sleeping like a log. She will sleep any where, in any position, through anything even through lighting and thunder. And for those of you that don't know a baby that wants to sleep will sleep no matter how much you try to wake her up. I guess that goes both ways cause when she doesn't want to sleep no amount of rocking, walking, singing, begging, pleading will get her to sleep....

...One thing she sure does love is her playful daddy and she seems to like to poop every time he gets his hands on her, which is awesome for me!...

...But when she is awake she is certainly alert and wide eyed and doing a great job of holding her head up when shes on her tummy. On a super sad note (really only sad for me) shes now grown out of her newborn clothes. Her chunky self pops the buttons right open!...

... We had a nice visit with Grammy this week. Grammy was even nice enough to babysit and let me and Jer sneak off to a movie and the store and some alone time. Now on to meet the rest of the Giardini gang soon!

Olive is a Pro

A WHOLE LOT OF OLLIE!!!!!!!

She smiles quite a bit when she is sleeping!!





She also does really random stuff with her hands when she sleeps!!






And she sleeps ALOT!!




My little Zoolander!!


Daddy and Olive





This was taken right after her most favorite thing to do, take a bath!!



Think shes sick of me taking her picture yet?!?!?!

Family Weekend

Olive had a good 2 week birthday with the family. Grandpa and Grandma Fey and Aunt Cassie came in and spent the weekend. Being only 2 weeks old she didn't do much but sleep, eat and cry!! But we had a good time bowling and dancing on the Xbox, with only a couple minor injuries suffered by Grandpa!!! I can't belive that shes already 2 weeks old. Im already dreading her getting any bigger!!!!

Lookie what we made!!!

Ahhhhh! So Olive finally is here! I can't even say how thrilling it is to have a tiny little person that is half me and half Jeremy (Although its fair to say she looks much more half of Jeremy than me!!) in the house. She was born on Jeremy's 30th birthday January 27th and weighed 7 lbs 13 ounces and was 21" Without going in too much detail about the birthday because it was quite traumatic for all three of us and the outcome defiantly out weighs all the bad scary details. We went in at 6am in the morning to have my water broke cause the little stinker was late. Everything seemed to be going good, I was having contractions and progressing on my own so no other interventions were needed which was so important to me, at around 5 I was ready to push. I pushed for a little over 2 and half exhausting hours. But unknown to the doctors and myself I have a super narrow pelvis, they explained that the first opening in my pelvis which is supposed to be the biggest opening is on me the smallest and would not fit Olives big ole head. Sadly this means I would never be able to give birth naturally. But in all my pushing I had wedged Olive in my pelvis and she was very stuck so I was rushed in for an emergency C section. Obliviously this was very devastating for us, but the important part was getting Olive out ok. I had a very bad reaction to the spinal block that they gave me and the details are somewhat fuzzy because I went unconscious, but long story short they were able to get Olive out and once they got her breathing she made a full recovery! I got to finally see her about 4 hours later. Luckily she has the best daddy in the world and he was able to go to the NICU and spend time with her while I was in recovery. So the birth was the exact opposite of what we had planned and there were some things that happened that will forever change the way that me and Jeremy look at each other and Olive, we were all very lucky and I'm grateful for that cause nothing could be better than this new little family!!
We were able to all come home on Sunday and have been slowly learning all about having a baby! She is so far (fingers crossed) a really good baby! She sleeps and nurses very well and loves the sound of her daddy's voice. She got a bath today and loved it. She's got a big month coming up, she gets to meet her Aunt Cassie and see Grandpa and Grandma Fey again, and then Grammy Giardini comes to visit at the end of the month. And I cannot wait to show her off to the rest of the fam this spring and summer, but until then I will make sure to keep you all posted with pictures and stories!!!!